Last I left you I had just finished giving you all the bullet points of my adolescents. Just like everyone's life, there is so much more to those moments but I wanted to avoid getting lost in the weeds.
So let's pick up in 2011....
I'm working in a salon and newly married. Todd and I married in September of 2011 and just a few months later I found myself pregnant. I wish I could say it was a joyous occasion but I sadly miscarried just a few short weeks later. You can imagine the grief. Fast forward a couple months later and I find myself pregnant again. This time I was lucky enough to deliver a baby boy on October 31st of 2012.
I knew when I got pregnant I would want to be a stay-at-home mom. The likelihood of that actually happening was pretty uncertain. Todd and I both wanted that life for our family but the financial weight was very real. After lots of back and forth we decided to take a leap of faith and I never went back to work after delivering Simon. It was crazy to see how blessed our lives became during the first few years of me being home. To say the first couple years were easy would be a lie, but we were always met with the Lord's provision.
In January of 2016 I birthed another boy, Leo. Going from one child to two is almost like a sick joke. To say the transition was hard is an understatement. Those first few weeks were really dark for me but thankfully I came through the fog and was able to put one foot in front of the other. As my brother-in-law pointed out, having two boys is like losing at pinball. Mine and my husband's job in the home is 100% damage control. They are daring, loud, and just really intense. I have no idea what it's like to have a girl but whenever someone comes up to me in Target and tells me how much easier boys are than girls, I kinda wanna punch them. On the flip side though I love having boys. We share such a special bond and I love how much they adore one another as brothers. I will never regret not having a girl. I love my boys.
So, when are we gonna get to the business chatter??? When did Spinning Weaves come into the scene???
So, like I said in Part One of my post, I've always been a creative person but somewhere along the way I lost that part of me. I was all of the sudden a mom, and when you're a mom it's not abnormal to experience an identity crisis. Not only was I a mom, I was a SAHM. When you become 100% consumed with keeping children alive, fed and out of the ER, your "spare time" becomes almost non existent. I remember having multiple breakdowns over the years. Who am I without my kids? Why don't I have any friends? Why am I bored yet exhausted? I remember people asking me what I did in my down time or what my hobbies were and I could never give them an answer. Do hobbies even exist when you become a parent?
So, I remember it being the holidays of 2017 and Todd and I were having the usual discussion of what our gift giving criteria would be for one another at Christmas. Todd actually had a brilliant idea to gift one another an item that either pertained to a hobby we already enjoyed, or to a hobby we have wanted to try. Surprisingly, this was easy for me because a few days earlier I had come across a blog where they had a tutorial on weaving. This was a totally new idea for me and this was the first time I had actually seen someone weave a wall piece by hand. As far as my craftiness goes, I had some sewing experience from the past but this was something completely different.
On Christmas morning of 2017 Todd got me my first loom. This was probably the best gift he's ever gotten me, definitely the most profitable! I immediately went to work. I remember the first weaving felt so awkward. It was like trying to establish new muscle memory and it was hard. But the minute I finished my first piece I knew I was hooked. I started whipping pieces out left and right and I quickly realized that I was creating a money pit. I knew I needed to make some sort of income if I wanted to continue this craft because honestly, it's expensive. Tools, looms, fibers, time. There is a lot that goes into making these weavings. I was dropping hundreds of dollars at a time and I had no idea how I was going to afford to keep going. That was the turning point where I decided to start selling. I jumped on Etsy, made an account, and started selling. Selling through Etsy trickled into selling over Facebook, and then Instagram. I was selling through word of mouth and meeting with people all over town. It became exciting and still it so this day.
Running a small business with two small kids at home is tricky. It's 90% frustration and 10% work. I still have no idea how to do it right. There are so many things business wise that I would love to accomplish during the day but the reality of that happening is laughable. 99% of my work happens at night after the kids are in bed. Not to wish my kids lives away but I look forward to the day when I can focus more time on my business during daylight hours. My oldest will begin kindergarten in the fall and I'm hoping to create a new routine for what my time at home looks like during those hours. I've learned it's ok to not get work done, that's the perk of being my own boss. My kids are little and need my attention and they are my number one. My job as a mom will always come before my job as a fiber artist. That's just the way it is and I know I've failed if that ever is not the case. I don't want to ever look back and have regrets about my time at home with them. I am blessed and privileged to be in this position and I want to honor that in the best way that I can. I still have a lot of goals and dreams for this business but slow and steady is the pace I have to accept.
So yea! Sorry if that was long winded but I wanted to give you all my story in a way that made sense. I hope you continue to enjoy this blogging journey with me and I promise they won't all be super wordy and emotional. My sister likes to call me the Kourtney Kardashian of the family because I am the one with the least amount of emotional capacity. Joke's on her though because Kourtney is my favorite.
Until next time......